It's no secret that I have an eating disorder.
I was anorexic in high school. honestly to tell you that I weighed 95 lbs is a lie. I was 85 lbs when my mom, the nurse, told me to "Gain weight or you're seeing a doctor!"
I eventually did successfully gain the weight over the years, to a whopping 300 lbs!
My Gastric Bypass 3 years ago was probably the best health decision that I've ever made, but for my marriage, my mind and my realtionships with others, it wasn't so great. I do not regret the surgery. I have little ones that I need to be here for, and that wasn't going to happen at 300 lbs.
I do admit that I still suffer from the horrible torture of an eating disorder. I see myself as horrible fat still to this day, I beat myself over it. How sad is that?
I can only hope that by sharing this my daughters will see in me the abuse, and not abuse themselves in this way.
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